Sunday, December 23, 2018

Months 4-6




Sleep- As expected Ethan got all the way to sleeping through the night, and then hit the 4 month sleep regression. He never recovered from it, and is currently waking up 3 times a night. Bed time is sometime between 6-7pm and then he is up at 10pm, 1am, 4am, and up for the day at 6am. Although his sleep is horrendous he has still made progress. At 4 months he was 100% in our room in the rock n play. Around 4 1/2 months after we came back from disney we decided to have him start the night in his room, then when he woke up we just quickly fed him and kept him in our room so we didn't bother Aurora. By 5 months we realized that when we transferred him to our room he would wake up every 2 hours when he normally makes it 4, so we started keeping him in his room and he did great! He has occasionally slept in the crib, but due to pretty bad reflux he still needs to be elevated. 

Eat- I pumped breast milk for Ethan until about 4 and a half months. After that we switched over to a specialty formula to better suite Ethan's food allergies. He eats 4oz every 2-3 hours. First solid food was apples, second was bananas. Hates vegetables and Strawberries. He loves to chew on meat and loves gerber's chicken dinner baby food. Although he has had tastes here and there he still isn't interested in eating solid foods consistently every day, and he doesn't like a whole lot of food. I put oatmeal in his bottles to help with reflux and fill him up.

Play- He loves being tickled and played with one on one. He started liking the sit me up a little more. He spins the toys it came with. The play mat and jumper are OK and he lasts above 5 minutes in each before he's over it. I have been teaching him recently to knock blocks down. His favorite toy is a singing light up star. 
Stats- 4 months 13lbs 12 oz, 
          6 months 15lbs 25 inches

6 month sleepers, 9 month outfits, size 4 diapers


Monday, October 1, 2018

Months 1-3




Sleep- Ethan is a great sleeper. Right from the beginning he always chose sleep over eating. He would go 3 hours between feeds during the day and 4 hours at night. Waking up consistently at 1am, 4am, and then up for the day at 8ish am. Until 1 month old Ethan would sleep anywhere and everywhere. Starting at about 1 month old Ethan strongly preferred sleeping on his belly. It was the only way he would sleep actually. He hated being on his back. Once we figured out the reason why was he had a severe milk protein allergy and reflux, he was ok sleeping on his back again in the rock n play. For the first 9ish weeks he would wake up, eat, and immediately go back to sleep during the day. Getting him to nap was pretty difficult. He didn't want to be awake, but didn't want to sleep either. At about 2 months old he started napping in his swing, and this made a HUGE difference. He would knock out almost immediately after being in the swing. After 9 weeks he started being able to stay awake for about an hour, and then nap for about an hour. One time a day he will have a longer nap lasting about 2 or 3 hours. This is usually in the morning. Bed time is somewhere between 7-8pm. When he started having more awake time during the day, he started sleeping 6 hours at night. And now at 3 months old he pretty consistently sleeps 8 hours with a few peeps and needing a binky in between.

Eat- As a newborn Ethan was a lazy eater. As said above he preferred to sleep. I had to set alarms to wake him up to make sure he was getting enough to eat. His weight was a little scary the first couple weeks as he was not gaining enough of his birth weight back. Once my milk came in, and he started waking up on his own to eat everything evened out. At 3 weeks old it became pretty apparent something was bothering him when it came to eating. He would cry and cry and cry, had LOTS of gas, and hated laying on his back. Nothing would help him. I noticed one day that he was extra miserable after I ate pizza and ice cream. This lead us to figure out that he had a milk protein allergy. After I cut dairy out of my diet, his gas was a lot better. He still seemed uncomfortable, and still hated being on his back. This lead to a diagnosis of reflux. Within a day of taking reflux medicine he was sleeping happily again. After everything finally calmed down I randomly ate corn one day and he immediately went back to the worst gas and crying I have ever seen. Turns out he has a corn allergy as well! This explained why formula wasn't helping like so many suggested. Even the hypoallergenic ones. All formulas have corn in them, except for Alimentum ready to feed (which we hadn't tried yet). So now I don't eat corn products either. Randomly at 2 months old Ethan decided he did not want to feed from the breast anymore. He never figured out how to latch naturally, and then he decided he also hated the nipple shield. He kept swinging his head back and forth and the nipple shield would just fall out of his mouth. So I am now exclusively pumping and feeding him from a bottle. It isn't as horrible as I thought it would be. It is nice that someone else can feed him and he is still getting breast milk. I started off pumping every 2 hours (which was hard to keep up with), and now its between 4 and 6 hours. At night I pump whenever he wakes up. Daddy feeds him a pumped bottle while I pump his next feed. I make about an oz an hour. Occasionally he does get supplemented with formula if I don't make enough, or if I accidentally eat corn or dairy.

Play- Did not really want to play at all until about 3 months. He kind of likes his activity gym (not nearly as much as Aurora at this age). Mostly just wants to be held and talked to instead of played with. Started smiling at 7 weeks and giggling at 11 weeks.

Stats- 1month: 7lbs 8oz 20 inches 
          2 month: 10lbs, 6oz 21.5 inches tall
          3 month: 12lbs 2oz

Wednesday, June 27, 2018

He's here!!

watching shows waiting for the foley bulb to do its thing

laboring at 8cm

laboring at 8cm

Baby's heart beat and contractions

Freshly born all swaddled up

On June 16 I headed to labor and delivery with a high blood pressure reading. (145/99) I have had borderline high blood pressure readings all pregnancy and was told to go if it was ever over 140/90. They did some tests and monitored the baby. Labs came back normal, and my BP calmed down a little bit, so they ultimately sent me home despite my concerns. I called them back about an hour later pretty frustrated because within an hour of coming home my BP was back up to (148/105) with me simply sitting on the couch. They told me since I have an appointment in a couple days that for now that number was ok and we will discuss it at the appointment (eye roll) I asked what would warrant another L&D visit and they said anything higher than 160/110. I tried to take it easy the rest of the day and went to bed. The next morning I had terrible blood sugar (180 breakfast after a 112 fasting) despite being on 2000mg of metformin to attempt to control it. I really just wasn't feeling well so I went and took my blood pressure and it was 168/108!!! I didn't even call, and went straight in to L&D and sure enough they decided to induce. I had a lot of mixed emotions because I knew 37 weeks is a bit early, and I wanted him to be mature enough to be born, but I also knew my body was not handling this pregnancy anymore and with all the medicine and stress that wasn't safe for him either.

Before induction started I was 1.5 cm dilated, and 50% effaced. To start things off my doctor put in a foley bulb at around noon. We were told to wait until it falls out and by then I should be about 3 cm, and then we would go from there. We were admitted into a room and decided to take it easy for a while. We unpacked our bags, got set up on the monitors, and got comfortable. Michael ran home to put Miss Aurora down for a nap and get anything else we needed. From there is was a waiting game. I definitely felt some contractions, but nothing too intense.  About 6 hours went by and the foley bulb was still hanging on with no movement when I tugged on it. I started to become really anxious thinking this wasn't going to work that we would be there forever, or worse be sent home with a failed attempt. The nurse suggested we get up and walk around the hospital. We walked around the hospital, got Michael some dinner, and talked about through our emotions. By the time we got back to our room I felt some movement and started tugging on the foley bulb, and sure enough by the time the nurse came back to check on me it came out!! I was excited thinking I would be at 3 cm, and absolutely ecstatic when we found out that I was actually 6 cm with a bulging bag!!! For all the nerves we had the foley bulb actually did an amazing job getting labor going. Since my bag of waters was bulging the doctor decided to go ahead and break it at around 7pm. This was great news because I knew with my previous labor nothing really got going until they broke my water, even with pitocin. The new plan was to see how my body progresses with no pitocin to see if we can get away with out using it. At first the contractions were completely bearable. Similar to how they felt with the foley bulb in. We set up the computer and started watching a show, pausing it every once in a while if a contraction was too much. After I while I felt like I couldn't sit still anymore through the contractions so I asked for a nursing ball and starting standing and squatting through them. The nurses gave Michael some paperwork to fill out while I was laboring to kick start his birth certificate and social security card. At this moment it was really peaceful. We turned on classical music, michael filled out paperwork, and I worked through my contractions. The nurses basically left us alone to do our thing. At 845pm I was 7 cm dilated, and by 10pm I was 8cm and very uncomfortable. I was thinking hard on whether or not I should go for no epidural or if I should go ahead and get it. At 8cm I had to be close, but the contractions were starting to come on top of each other and not giving me a break in between. I thought to myself I have nothing to prove, and it would be really nice to get a little break before it was time to push. I knew if I got the epidural the baby would come shortly after (this is what happened last time) so I decided to call it and ask for the epidural. I was hesitant and almost second guessing my decision when the contractions picked up even more in intensity. I was told I had to wait a half hour before getting the epidural so they could give me fluids through my IV and by the time that half hour was up I was practically begging for it. No regrets on that decision haha. Epidural was in at 10pm and the break was heavenly. We put another show on and the nurse said she will come back in a hour to check on progress. Once again I got bummed thinking I stalled all the wonderful progress I made. I was feeling absolutely no contractions, and the monitors reading them showed a flat line. I thought for sure they would come back to check me and say they needed pitocin to kick start the contractions back up, and I thought there was no way he was going to make it for a June 17th birthday, and once again I was completely wrong. At 1130pm my doctor came to check me and explained that she had a scheduled c section soon so she may not be able to birth my son. Instead she checked and said I was a full 10cm and ready to push if I wanted to try. I was shocked and prepared myself that since he wasn't in the birth canal yet it may be a while longer than my last birth. Nope! With three contractions and 9 pushes Ethan Parker Clay was born on June 17th, 11:48 pm, 6lbs 15oz, 18.5 inches long. 10 minutes after the first push, and just in time to be a Fathers Day baby. PS I had ZERO stitches this time! I am a lucky lucky girl. 

Ethan was put right up on my chest for skin to skin, Michael cut the cord, and we just stared at him and said hello. He was not very interested in latching to eat, and to prevent his sugar from tanking (like it did with Aurora) I went ahead and gave him formula through a syringe. This worked perfectly because his sugars remained stable the whole hospital stay. He did however have a little bit of an issue keeping his temperature in range. He never went below 97.5, but he was always just barely in the acceptable range. We spent a lot of time keeping him under a heat lamp and keeping him bundled up in lots of blankets. He remained very sleepy the first day or two and was a very lazy eater. He wouldnt latch on, even with a nipple shield. This unfortunately lead us to have to give him formula instead of breast milk way more times than I was comfortable with. I will say though, it was more important that he eats and not get taken to the NICU away from us then to have breast milk. I attempted at the breast first every time, then handed him to Michael who syringed formula in his mouth while I pumped to stimulate my breasts to bring in my milk. Despite what all the breast feeding information says, my milk still came in, and by day 4 we were off of formula all together. Now we just have to work on weaning from the nipple shield. For being born at 37 weeks Ethan is doing absolutely amazing. At one week old he is eating good, sleeping 4 hour stretches at night, and pooping and peeing as many times as he should. He already picks up his head and tracks daddy with his eyes. Aurora absolutely LOVES him, she constantly asks to hold him, always comments on what he is doing, and loves to rub his head while he is sleeping. I am healing amazingly, and in a way better place mentally this time around than I was with Aurora. We are absolutely in love, and doing really great as a new family of four.


Thursday, June 21, 2018

36/37 weeks


How far along? 36/37 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: about 40 lbs
Maternity clothes? Maternity clothes, husbands clothes, no clothes lol
Stretch marks? Everywhere ):
Sleep: Same as before. I'm up a lot in the middle of the night due to pain and having to pee. When I do sleep I'm dead because I'm exhausted.
Best moment this week: Growth scan showing baby Ethan looking great.Grammy is on her way to help out, which means hes almost here!!
Worse moment this week: More L&D trips due to high BP. Sugars are such a mess I'm prescribed insulin now.
Miss Anything? A tall glass of whine haha
Movement: Less movement but hiccups like 3 times a day
Food cravings: All things meat. Grilled BBQ, yum.
Anything making you queasy or sick: All this stupid medicine I'm on
Gender: baby boy 💙💙
Symptoms: All the usual things. 
Labor Signs: lots of discharge/losing mucus plug. Lots of random braxton hicks. Is just having a gut feeling a symptom? I feel like the end is close.
Belly Button in or out? Still in, but very shallow, if I push down it pops out lol.
Wedding rings on or off? off. everything is super swollen now a days
Happy or Moody most of the time: I'm truly just over all of this by now. I'm constantly worried. Worried about his health, worried about my health, worried that if we induce to fix the problems will he be ok? The mental game is real.
Looking forward to: Honestly I'm looking forward to just being done. I'm looking forward to snuggles and breast feeding and breathing the wonderful smell of a newborn.

Saturday, May 26, 2018

32-34 weeks



How far along? 34 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: about 30 lbs
Maternity clothes? Maternity clothes, husbands clothes, no clothes lol I'm pretty miserable in anything now a days.
Stretch marks? Everywhere ):
Sleep: Not so good lately. I wake up at 1am, 3am, 5am, and 7/8am every.single.night. to go to the bathroom. And every time I wake up I have to roll over to get out of bed, and this absolutely destroys my hips. So painful. But when I am actually asleep I am OUT, so that is nice. Miss Aurora has been kind to me this pregnancy and sleeps until around 9am most mornings...man I'll miss that when baby boy comes.
Best moment this week: Feeling more prepared for baby Ethan. Hospital bag is packed, everything that is necessary is bought, all the clothes and blankets are washed, nursery is sort of together. I feel good about it. We just need to sanitize binkies/bottles and pull out some of Aurora's old baby stuff.
Worse moment this week: Had to go to Labor and Delivery twice to stop consistent contractions (they're still coming just not timbale). Blood pressure is acting up again, fasting blood sugars are a mess (100+) even with medicine, hip pain is miserable and starting to shoot down my leg. Yeah third trimester is kicking my ass.
Miss Anything? Just having a normal body would be nice. Being able to eat ice cream with out killing my kid would be great. I miss being able to run around with Aurora and get on the floor to play with out being being in a ton of pain.

Movement: Less movement then last month, but still a lot. Whenever he's on the monitors he kicks them like crazy. He's been getting hiccups every day twice a day lately.
Food cravings: Still loving all things meat. We've been grilling a lot lately since the weather is beautiful and I love it. BBQ chicken is my favorite right now.
Anything making you queasy or sick: I seem to feel sick if I go too long with out eating.
Gender: baby boy 💙💙
Symptoms: All the usual things. 
Labor Signs: Non stop Braxton hicks (or maybe real contractions?) that are sometimes timbale, lots of pressure down there, baby is engaged as of right now and I'm sort of dilated and soft. 
Belly Button in or out? Still in, but very shallow, if I push down it pops out lol.
Wedding rings on or off? on and off. I'm uncomfortable wearing them most days
Happy or Moody most of the time: I'm an emotional mess. The third trimester is extremely exhausting mentally. I go back and forth between he's trying to come on his own any day (hence the having to stop contractions at L&D) to they may induce me any week (high BP and out of control GD), to I will go full 40. lol. It's really exhausting to be prepared for any of that. 
Looking forward to: Honestly I'm looking forward to just being done, but I know I need to soak in these last couple weeks as a family of three. Enjoy my time with Aurora while I'm still getting ok-ish sleep and not glued to a newborn. Also the longer he can safely stay in there the better. I don't want a NICU stay.

P.S does anyone else notice how crazy this baby bump is? One day its LOW, another it's super high. One day its round and big, others its more squared off and small. So weird.

Saturday, April 28, 2018

Aurora at 2 years old





Sleep- Aurora is a fantastic napper. She will take a 4 hour nap if I let her. She usually wakes up around 8 am (sometimes earlier sometimes later). She stays awake for about 5 1/2 hours and naps around 1:30/2pm. She stays asleep until I wake her up at 4:30 when daddy comes home. As I said she would easily sleep longer if I let her, but then she would be difficult to get down at night. Bed time is around 930, but she often fights it and stays awake in her crib until 10pm or later. She will go to bed easier if we go out in the afternoon, but living in Alaska that isn't always an option. Her bedtime is later than I would like, but the only fix would be taking her nap away. I would rather her still nap and go to bed later.

Eat- Aurora eats breakfast pretty much right after we wake up for the morning. Her favorite breakfasts are; nutrigrain waffles, yogurt and a banana, bagel and cream cheese, any fruit especially oranges, and apple cinnamon oatmeal. Lunch is right before nap time so she's nice and full (and has no excuses). Favorite lunches are; peanut butter and jelly, grilled cheese, mac and cheese, or any fruit/yogurt/cheese/cracker combo. In the past she usually got a snack after nap time, but recently she will eat dinner better if she does not get a snack. So we eat dinner at around 630. She still loves chicken nuggets with a vegetable (green beans, broccoli, carrots, corn, peas) and some sort of pouch (apple sauce, pear/spinach/pea, etc.) she has tried and liked cheese burgers, and quesadillas as well. Our trick to get her to eat meat and veggies is allowing her to dip it in ranch. She will eat anything dipped in ranch haha. If she's really not feeling chicken then we resort back to a grilled cheese or a peanut butter and jelly sandwich (if she didn't already have for lunch). She still isn't a big fan of any meats, but I still always ask if she wants to try whatever we are having. She is great at using a fork, and can even use a spoon with sticky things like yogurt. We are in a mix of still using her high chair and letting her sit on a regular chair at the table.

Play- new toys she loves; puzzles, kitchen and play foods, lots and lots of coloring and stickers, little people play sets (princess castle and farm), she has an indoor slide she can climb and slide down on her own, and she has started imaginary play with baby dolls and stuffed animals. She loves her mickey, donald, and pluto stuffies and has to sleep with them every night. Obviously she still loves TV, and can also play on an iPad. She loves ABC mouse and any fisher price apps. Another new play adventure for her is being enrolled in gymnastics and soccer. She does struggle following directions and doing scheduled activities that constantly moves and changes. She is more used to wondering her playroom doing whatever she wants. I want to get her involved in more things like this so she can grow.

Milestones- Since 18 months she has talked A LOT. She talks in sentences, and does a very good job at trying to get her point across. She knows some basic emotions such as happy, sad, angry which I try to help her understand as much as possible. She can also sing full songs such as old mcdonald and twinkle twinkle. We have introduced the potty, and she has peed in it a couple of times. My take on the potty is to introduce it and encourage her to use it as much as possible, but I am not forcing any 3 day training quite yet. If she wants to try great, if not then it's no big deal. She has not attempted to climb out of her crib once (knock on wood) so my thought is "if it aint broke don't fix it". I don't want to move her to a toddler bed unless I have to. I have no issue her staying in her crib as long as possible. Aurora will become a big sister in July!! We take care of baby dolls to practice for her baby brother. We also read lots of books and watch some shows about it as well. I believe she really is excited for a baby and will love him and think he's adorable...until he tries to take any of her toys lol.

Stats- 25 pounds, 32? inches, 3T clothes, size 6-ish shoes

Tuesday, April 24, 2018

28-30 weeks



How far along? 30 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: about 25 lbs

Maternity clothes? Same as always. A mix. It really isn't necessary to buy all maternity clothes. The only think you really NEED is a pair or two of maternity jeans/shorts.
Stretch marks? All over. Sad face. At least they are only on my stomach

Sleep: Exhaustion has come back with a vengeance. I get through the day pretty good thanks to coffee and nesting, but I usually pass out while hubby and I are watching a show after Aurora is in bed. I can't even make it until 10pm.
Best moment this week: My blood pressure has calmed down a little bit (although at my appointment today my lower number was 97), my blood sugar has been good, and my last appointment they said baby boy is now head down. All of this makes me feel relived. I feel more relaxed thinking my birth will go more or less "normal" instead of having to be induced due to high blood pressure, or having to get a c section because he is breech. Since we live away from family my biggest stress right now is making sure I can fly my mom out at the proper time to make sure someone is with my daughter when I give birth. Otherwise I'm giving birth alone while hubby stays with her. All this news makes me a little more confident that baby boy will make it to due date and my mom will be here.
Worse moment this week: I'm really starting to feel run down from the baby. It's scary some days to think I still have 10 weeks left, because I feel 9 months pregnant.

Miss Anything? I miss just having my own body. Its really hard lately to move around. I have so much I want to do and I literally just can't. I struggled just moving a laundry basket down the hallway the other day. There are days my daughter wants to me stand and hold her for a long time before bed and I literally just can not. 
Movement: LOTS of movement all day...isn't he supposed to sleep at some point? 
Food cravings: MEAT. I've been obsessed with ribs and burgers lately.
Anything making you queasy or sick: I got heartburn medicine and I'm feeling much better. 
Gender: Little man 💙💙
Symptoms: Hip pain (I really should see a chiropractor), out of breath, nesting,
Labor Signs: Getting braxton hicks contractions, but other than that he's staying put.
Belly Button in or out? Still in, but pretty shallow.
Wedding rings on or off? on and off. I'm uncomfortable wearing them most days
Happy or Moody most of the time: Very happy and optimistic 
Looking forward to: Maybe a growth scan? I wish I could get a 4d scan but its really pricey in Alaska.
Random thoughts: Officially diagnosed with gestational diabetes again. No shock since it runs in my family. I have noticed this time has been much easier than last time. I have a better idea of what to eat/not eat. I was on a Keto diet prior to getting pregnant and this is way easier compared to that. Hubby is also dieting so we are supporting each other and it works out nicely. This pregnancy I crave meat which is great for a diabetic diet, whereas last pregnancy I hated meat and just wanted carbs. So far my sugars have been fantastic, even my fasting numbers. I'm hoping to stay off of medicine this time. 

Monday, April 2, 2018

22-25 weeks



How far along? 25 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: about 20 lbs
Maternity clothes? Still mix and match, but I did just buy a bunch of new maternity shirts. I usually wear lularoe leggings or maternity jeans (or my hubbys boxers around the house) and a maternity shirt
Stretch marks? My stomach is blowing up this time with stretch marks. Sucks. I did so good the first time around. Im not sure if living in dry Alaska contributes to that.
Sleep: Less pressure and peeing at night, but more hip pain and poor circulation.
Best moment this week: Reaching half way and viability!
Worse moment this week: Blood pressure issues. I've had a couple blood pressure readings above 140/90 and it is really starting to concern me. The other day I started seeing spots and colors in front of my eyes, and my OB sent me to labor and delivery. They said my blood work came back good, the baby looked good, and my blood pressure slowly went down while I was there. So I was sent home. I hope this isn't a reoccurring thing.
Have you told family and friends: We announced his name ^^
Miss Anything? WINE hahaha and being able to take any medicine I need when sick.
Movement: He is definitely a mover! Way more than his sister.
Food cravings: Cereal has been a favorite this time.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Literally everything is giving me miserable heartburn
Gender: Little man 💙💙
Symptoms: Swelling, hip pain, itchy stomach, out of breath all the time, baby is still breach.Labor Signs: Nothing significant. Braxton hicks are happening all the time.
Belly Button in or out? In, I don't think I'm a popper.
Wedding rings on or off? on and off. I'm uncomfortable wearing them most days
Happy or Moody most of the time: still pretty moody to be honest
Looking forward to: Finishing nursery, packing hospital bag, hospital tour...all of it. I can't wait for him to be here!
New this time: This pregnancy could not seriously be more different than my first. They really are right when they say every pregnancy is different. Im having some high blood pressure issues, which I never had with Aurora. I'm getting high 140s over high 90s. Lots and lots of swelling already. My hips pop loudly all the time, I feel like I need to see a chiropractor. I just feel completely defeated this time whereas when I was pregnant with Aurora I was still in the gym until 39 weeks. A positive difference is my skin is almost flawless this pregnancy compared to break outs all the time with my girl. 



Thursday, February 22, 2018

18 and 20 weeks





How far along? 20 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: about 15 lbs
Maternity clothes? Mix and match some normal some maternity
Stretch marks? Ugh sadly there are new ones forming in the middle of my stomach ):
Sleep: At night I get SO MUCH PRESSURE down low. Especially when I have to pee. I literally feel like baby boy is going to fall out. So needless to say I'm tossing and turning a lot
Best moment this week: Anatomy scan. Grandmom visiting. Auroras birthday
Worse moment this week: Running around shopping for birthday caused a lot of back pain/contractions
Have you told family and friends: Everyone knows.
Miss Anything? Being able to move freely and keep up with a toddler
Movement: Lots and lots of movement, mostly at night and in the mourning. Or if I'm sitting hunched over he kicks me haha. He hates being squished.
Food cravings: Everything gives me heartburn.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nausea has actually let up. 
Gender: Bouncing baby boy.
Symptoms: So much pressure, less back pain but still there, and lots and lots of heart burn. 
Labor Signs: Hopefully not for a while but I am getting braxton hicks
Belly Button in or out? In I don't think I'm a popper.
Wedding rings on or off? on and off. I'm uncomfortable wearing them most days
Happy or Moody most of the time: pretty moody this week and hormonal 
Looking forward to: Getting baby boys nursery together.
New this time: It feels like a bowling ball is sitting on my cervix. I never felt this much pressure with Aurora, and she was always so much higher than he is. Baby boy is technically breech as of 20 weeks. I'm trying not to worry too much about it because he has plenty of time to flip, but Aurora was already head down at 20 weeks and never moved.



20 week ultrasound 💙💙💙

18 months & 4 years old

What life is like currently for us currently: We moved from Alaska to Ohio. We built our dream house.  Michael is doing great at work. ...