Letters to Aurora

Aurora
I am just over half way through my pregnancy with you, and I am giddy with excitement at what is to come. Time is flying by and it is only a matter of time before I will be in the hospital with your father meeting you for the first time. Your dad and I have been thinking about you a lot lately. How will we decorate your room? How should we raise you? Who will you be like? We are very eager to find out. Speaking of your father...he loves you so so much already. I hope you find a man like him one day. He likes to read and talk to you while you are growing inside of me. He was so excited when he found out your ears have developed enough that you could hear his voice. He is going to be such a good dad. Seeing his excitement and his love for you fills me up with all the happiness I could ever need in one lifetime. I'm sure he won't always be perfect, but I can assure you that he loves you more than you can ever imagine. I have been getting more and more pregnancy symptoms as the weeks go by. Some of them, like the lower back pain, is not so fun, but for the most part it's not so bad. I enjoy feeling you kick and squirm throughout the day. It's my constant reminder that you are healthy and growing. I can't wait until your dad starts feeling you kick on the outside. One thing I think about a lot is what kind of mother I will be. I want only the best for you, and sometimes I am terrified that I won't be good enough. I don't want your childhood to be anything like mine. I want to put all my effort into you. I want to be a good role model of what a strong woman in this world should be. I want you to always always know that you have a family and that we love you. I didn't get this as a child and it is my biggest hope for you. I never want you to feel alone in this world. I want to be the person you will come to in your happiest and saddest times in life. I want to guide you to become loving, caring person who works hard for the good things in life. It is quite a responsibility to do so much for one person. Everything I do will impact you in one way or another. I'm up for the challenge. As I said with your father I won't always be perfect, but I will always love you and be here for you and do the very best that I can.
Love your Momma.